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thoughts

Thoughts hmmmm. what am i thinking about? im thinking about colledge. and my girlfrend. im thinking about lots of things. im thinking about eternity and how im scared of it. im thiking about music. im thinking about apple pie. im thinking about all the kids in africa who have no food. im thiking abut how much homework i have. im thinking about my life and how its flying by very fast because next thing i know i will be married with kids and i will say wow that went by fast.
Thats what im thinking about.

i get along with people for some reson:P

For some reson i can get along with pretty much everyone. like the druggy kids i get along with them realy well (genuinly nice people). the art nerds lol im dating one of em :P. i get along with pretty much anybody(exept the douchbags who are jerks to girls i hate that). like this one time i was just sitting down durin math class and this girl who was sitting next to me asked me a question about geometry and the next thing i know we are best friends and i lost a bet to her. when i moved to highland i perpously tried to ge people to not like me because i was depressed and wanted to be by myself. so i would do random crazy shiz to get people to hate me. but a bunch of people diddent buy it and soon became my friends. i can make friends with just about every one. ind i like that. i like it when i make people happy because it makes me hapy. i wish that i was a little bit more outgoing thogh im still kinda shy around girls :) so sometimes i say weird stuff around them(i promise that im just getting to know you).
and i hope people like me as much as i like them. :)

Fears(real)

hmm im afraid of alot of crap. well lets begen. If i am going to tell you this im going to be compleatly real. ok. Im afraid of talking to girls(it still makes me nervous) Im afraid that people will think that i am stuped or gay or cocky(I know thats irrational) im afraid that people will think that im dumb(my spelling and grammer suck). im afraid that one day i will die alone. im afraid that i wont be able to get a good job. I am afraid of failure(my biggest fear). im afraid f one day finding out that something that i dit or said effected someone else so negatively that it plunged them into a spiral of depression(its happened). im afraid that one day i will come to a cross roads and wil have to chose my ultamate fate because if i choose wrong then im screwed. im afraid that one day i will wreck and the damage will be permanate this time(i have had over 12 concussions and have minor brain damage). im afraid that people will think i am fake. im afraid that one day my past will catch up to me. im afraid that one day i will fall back into my old habbits and be ok with it. im afraid that i wont ammount to anything.(i probably wont ammount to anything). im afraid of me slipping into deppresion again( i legitly hated myself and diddent want friends). im afraid that my parents wont like where i want to go to to colledge(dixie stateW00T) and that they will hate me because of it. im afraid that no one will read this. im afraid of god(even tho he says not to be) im afraid of death im afraid of eternity(im a deep thinker so thinking of eternity puts me to tears because it scares me).
You know what i kinda want to be one of those stoic badasses who just dont give a shit. (20 points to whoever guesses where that line it from;)


                                                                    Love Thomas fluffernutter

My thoghts on terrorizem

you know whats stuped? Terrorizem. terrorists are just a bunch of little wusses who cant fight like men. there so cowardly that the attack by bombing and killing women and children. That to me is a very @$$ hole thing to do. i mean realy they are just a bunch of whips! they make fun of christans all the time. but as soon as the christans poke back thes get there turbans in a twist and go attack the US embasy killing the embassador. I think that terrorists are whiney pu$$eys.     P.S pardon my use of not nice words.

Freaking love i mean realy? its hard to explane nevermind anyways.ohh love where have you gone to? i mean i have you (well at least i think i do) but some of my friends absolutely  dont. They constantly pursue things that dont even matter like halo or xbox. its driven them to a point of insanity that sociaty now considers normal. it diddent used to be that way. my dad was born into a time that diddent have videogames or stuff like that. he was forced to make his own fun just like his dad. he got to discover life not live it vicariously through some simulated 7 ft tall half tonne humanoid called a spartan. back then videogames diddent entertain people. people entertaned people. sometimes i wish i could go back and live back then. back when there was more love.

humans are awesome

humans are awesome. we are the apex predators of the planet. But we are much more than that we are special. we can do things that other things cant. We can think of our own free will> we arnt compleatly govened by a set of hardwired instincts. We can decide we can dicover new things. we have far more intelegence than anything else on the planet. we can love, we can hate, we can feel sorrow, we can have compassion, And we can understand what other people are going through. That is special to me. and in my opinion the human body is the most beautiful and wonderful thing on this planet.